I headed north on US-31 enjoying the Michigan countryside. Suddenly, I realized for the first time in years, I had no schedule and no one expecting to see me. I could do whatever I wanted. I pulled off the road, and stopped under a bridge where I had been fishing once. I stayed for hours, then left driving on back country roads to a lovely cottage by a lake where I spent the next three days doing whatever came to my mind at the moment. There were no crises or challenges to overcome. As planned, I just read, ran, kayaked, doodled, took pictures, ate and slept... and enjoyed doing it all alone with God. It was incredibly freeing!
I have discovered that I am a habitual planner. When first confronted with a challenge my immediate response is to analyze the problem and make a plan for how I will fix the problem. This might seem good, but it isn't. Instead of praying about things, I try to solve them my own way. I get excited about my ideas and then feel bad when they don't work out. If I were to sit and write down all my incomplete plans it would be immediately obvious that I want do a lot more than one person can actually do with the days I am given. I guess I am somehow addicted to getting things done, trying to do a lot on my own.
So I want to learn a new habit, praying first. Not waiting to get stuck before I start praying, but praying when I first encounter a new problem. Can you join me in asking God for this habit?
(This is the third and final post on prayer requests arising from my Daddy Retreat. Can you join me in thanking God for this beautiful time of rest and fellowship with him, and for specifically answering my prayer to show me what to pray?)
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